Leadenly  heaven's hanging from the sky

the earth is calling for my bones

I'd love to give into its cold embrace


Held back by the sweetest voice I've known


A promise I have made to this angel



to open my eyes each morning

"please do me that"

to taste life to its fullest

"you are to live"

to smile

"please do me that"



Here I am

I try my hardest to

But guilty I am

for opening my eyes

and wrong I am doing

in holding onto life



You left me in the belief

you're the one to harm me most

you believe

you do me best


I never agreed

I guess this is how it feels

like to lose one's mind

I feel myself disolving

I am inconsistent

I am numb

and I can't hear the words people speak

no sounds interfuse

I eat without tasting

I breathe without living

I am scared of what I've become

I am damaged