I can feel my bones crack

in this world's tight embrace


Mother Chaos,

City of Madness,

army of zombies,

quench your thirst for innocence on my blood

let me be a part of your wild jungle

suck the sorrow out of my flesh

I long to be mad

to lose the mind that creates shadows on my smile

rip it out off my skull


Confuse me with your rushing lights

with your barrening noise


Crush me please

pound me to pieces I beg you

shock me

scare the hell out of me

bond me to the simple instinct to survive




I'm escaping the nightmares

escaping into the jungle's dark

where worse might be waiting

I welcome every monster



I don't long for death

I just don't care to live



I'm not committing suicide

I'm diving into danger

adrenalin makes me feel alive

even if only for a short short while

I would pay every price

to escape my reality for just once


escaping and never coming back




If I stay my soul will suffocate

yesterday holds my heart in its talon

If I come to rest my pain will catch up to me


Mother Chaos, swallow me

hide me in your disaster

occupy my mind

with your lapdances and executions

numb my sense

please